IN THE HOUSE AGAIN

Damn, it’s been a minute since I took it old school & broke out the notepad & just vented like it’s nobody’s business. Sad to say, I’ve needed to do this for quite some time. Anyways, I don’t know about the rest of you, but I’ve seen that my fatigue is beginning to catch up to me. The grind has been enough excitement for me to be quite honest. Going through each day never knowing what to expect makes it even more worthwhile in the long haul. If you think for the first second I can put all of this shit in my life together, then you’re dead-ass wrong. There are some things I wish could just easily flow together w/ no problem, while there’s some of it that’s just not gonna seem or feel right no matter what I try to do differently. The times when I think I’ve got the green light, I seriously need to look up & see that yellow light telling me to slow my ass down. I’m too stubborn for my own damn good. As always, it goes back to the main culprits & the reason I’m here…my mother & father. Just like I have my father’s heart, I sometimes seem to gain his stubbornness is a way that is just indescribable. I know there’s no one to blame but myself for the wrong that I do, but I really wish I could avoid the finger-pointing altogether. However, we all know that’s not gonna happen. Now, I’ve seen people put the blame on themselves EVEN when they aren’t in the wrong. You can’t control the actions of others, because controlling yourself is already a tall order to fill. You are sometimes forced to look @ certain circumstances from the big picture POV, & that’s normally where things have been known to be challenging.

Well, I hope that everyone has enjoyed these words, because whenever I flow, I try to let it flow from my mind & solely from my heart. That’s challenging at times, but it’s not all that bad if you think about it. Hope to re-gain my readers again . Peace peace.