This one I can tag and bag until I’m blue in the face…wouldn’t phase me one way or the other. I’m gonna come clean for a minute & say YES, I have been neglecting my Tumblr & blogging altogether for that matter, but that happens when changes seem to arise out of the blue. You sometimes may not be prepared for the changes as they come, but you have to get your game face on & basically do what you gotta do. I’ve learned that it can be challenging at first, but in the end, it isn’t all that bad when you think about it. As much as I wanna “work vent”, I know from a previous experience that isn’t the best idea. What I will say however is that I’m better off doing what I’m doing right, which is write in my notebook & play my music. the only thing is that it’s tough to find the time to really write what I feel. Getting others to understand what I’m writing is where the challenge begins. I think you have to have the right state of mind to realize why I write what I write. So the truth of the matter is that life is fluidly flying right before my eyes. Honestly, I have no need complaining or worrying about much of anything. There’s been my fair share of changes & transitions I’ve had to overcome, & I’ll be the first to admit that it’s been a change beyond belief. For instance, the new scheduling process is a little different, but I actually enjoy it being this way. You’d be surprised by what life has in store for you. Many times, these blogs flow freely, but lately I’m learning to keep the thoughts to a fair minimum, because if I find this strange or wrong way to express my thoughts, then the misinterpretation begins. It’s just something to think about. Anyways, I’m gonna leave these thoughts at this point, & basically go from there. My relaxation may be for the better.
OK, now here’s what I wanted to say. I wish that I write more from my mind than from my heart. If you pay attention to my thoughts…when they’re intense, there’s no turning back or holding punches. I feel like when you’re filtered, then the real thoughts don’t come out that you want your readers to look forward. Anytime I have someone tell me that I’m holding back how I feel, then I’m a little worried. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I can explain why I did it, but I don’t think I should have to do that. Anyways, I want my girlfriend to know that I love her so much. There’s no other one that has my heart but her. Our quality time has been cherished. If I don’t say it, I hope the way I show how you feel hits home. I sent her into my archive about how love has this weird way of hitting some ladies when it comes to what they’re “looking” for. Anyways, hope she enjoys that and that she enjoys the mini shout out she’s gotten in this blog ;). Well, I hope that this added piece didn’t pull you away or think I was mushy, because I’m not…I GO HARD. OK, enough fronting. I hope everyone enjoys the rest of the week. Take it easy.