Breaking of the Silent Assassin

It’s been pretty interesting how my thoughts have wanted to come & go without my personal permission. Lately, I’ve been so caught up in my personal routine that it’s been nothing short of an adjustment. I’ve been able to be myself with someone who FINALLY gets me. With some people, I feel like I was going out of my way to explain myself on the things that don’t involve as much explanation. I’ve said & felt certain things, but for once I think I actually got this one right. She’s comfortable & actually is willing to let me be me. Not many females are good at doing this, because they’re trying so hard to make an individual be someone or something they’re not. That’s nowhere near close to the norm. There’s no need in putting names out there, because the truth will express itself, & she proves how happy she is with me every chance she gets. Sanity has been second nature since being with her. We have made nothing official, but it may as well be based on how well we coincide with each other. She has this odd spell that I practically get puled in by without even realizing it. The amazing part of it is that our feelings are mutual. One thing I think about is how we can listen to music or talk about a song, & it causes us to see who can get the other person to expand their musical & mental library. I’m frequently learning every chance I get. Ok, so I’ve broken my silence just a little, but those who are close to me know the full scoop. What I will say, however, is that I haven’t been this happy in quite some time. The infamous phrase I’m use to is “What makes her different?” And my immediate response to that is she gets me & isn’t gonna make the process any more difficult than it doesn’t have to be. The emphasis behind this post is that she gets me. I know that may sound redundant, but she really gets me. What I find to be amazing is that she knows how to throw the perfect song to explain how I’m feeling or give me a moment of clarity. There are a lot of songs and references to other songs that hit close to home to get her to understand how much I care for her. I’ve had some ghosts come out of the woods, because they can see that this is a little different, but I won’t change it for the world. There’s a big fish in the sea that I know will “try” to trick it up, but the saltiness of being able to pull it off will be slim to none. That’s just the way I personally look at it. My silent assassin personal or aura hasn’t shown up in over a year, & I plan to put it back in it’s cage. On that note, I would like to close this blog out with the following. Being & feeling hurt can cause you to go through a tough healing process. However, that doesn’t mean that you don’t have to get out there & try again. I’ve had people share that I’m reaching and jumping & pushing for more, when I know that my time & my moment is coming. Well, on second thought, it’s here. It’ll break me out of my shell in a way that I’m not used to. I’ll leave you with these words & dangle this blog, because I know a lot of you are looking for more, but if you need clarity or understanding, read my morning inspiration or see what posts have been exposed along with the fact that her morning musical fixings keep us BOTH going. OK, for real, I’m leaving this time. Enjoy your day/night/life & be on the lookout for Inconsistent Impatience. If you don’t wanna know, then remember, that You’ve Been Warned.

MB signing out

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s