A WHOLE DAMN YEAR

So we’re a few days away (make that today) from what I personally consider to be a pretty intense milestone. Well, it isn’t the best milestone, but nonetheless, it’s a day that will always stand out on a calendar for years to come. It’s coincidental that it’s the same day as my brother’s birthday. I felt bad about the multiple birthdays I missed while in this location, but I also know that by being the way I was & doing a lot of what I did, it placed me where I am now. The milestone (if you wanna call it that) is that I was released from the Richmond Justice Center (I had to do some research to make sure I gave it the proper name). What’s coincidental is that I was in both of them for about the same amount of time. For those wondering, I didn’t have the most exciting aura while serving my 2 and a half month sentence. I’ve done plenty of growing from my personal experience. Without going through a lot of what I did, it wouldn’t cause me to think as much as I do today. I am caught very frequently trying to step back & do plenty of reflecting. The most enjoyable portion of the transition following the year as a whole is that there have been quite a few changes. I’m kinda exposing and sharing the stories involving my infamous annual year in review. One key piece of information that I obtained is to make sure that you invest that energy to realize that pointing the finger at others won’t take the blame or problem from the primary culprit. If you dropped the ball, you only come out better literally learning to own & accept what you did wrong. We sometimes don’t like the way we’re taught lessons, but then you start to understand that without those lessons, you have absolutely no space to grow or manage to overcome from anything that has happened. That’s the way I see it at least. From time to time, I constantly feel that I really don’t belong here, but the best part is that I’m here & not going anywhere. I’ve found love & we’re working on things day by day…(yeah I’m leaving it open). Getting my job at the CO (yeah I haven’t changed on that either) has been a blessing by far. I have learned to value/cherish their work of allowing me to keep & maintain a job. This computer that I’m typing on is one payment away from officially being MINE, & I’m excited about that. I finally made my conversion to the Mac world, as well as the Microsoft Xbox One community. I never thought it would happen, but we’re here & taking it all in with open arms. I wouldn’t change it for the world. One thing that I’ve noticed is that I’ve become very open minded & open to all that life brings my way. I think the biggest transition for me would be the fact that I’ve gotten into ordering & wearing all of these nerd shirts that I would have never purchased in a million years. It makes me value life in so many strange ways. I’ll apologize in advance if I’m repeating quite a few phrases. I seriously didn’t think I would be here a year ago. The main thing I’m proud of is that I’m here & I have no plans of looking back. I keep the rearview mirror adjusted where deemed necessary. However, the focal point is looking forward. My history & my past is why I’m willing to adjust & learn from all that has happened. Growth, patience, & transition is the name of the game. Many times, we do something because we can, failing to realize that you have sometimes just take that pause button and hover your finger over it just enough to slow down a little. Reflecting, adjusting, & piecing things together is something I haven’t done before. That’s what got me in the position I was in. Now, however, I just know that it’s gonna happen with me really consistently thinking & getting through.

The biggest thing that crosses my mind is that there’s even more ahead within the upcoming year. I feel as though what goes unnoticed is that I’m working to possibly build a brand. I have told a few people about my plain, but I’m waiting for the right time to state/share my plan. Of course, I have to do my part first (which I highly think can be accomplished). The focus is the top priority in the midst of this. I know that you can’t pinpoint everything, but those things that you can put together are worth being placed together in the end. The big picture is usually what it all comes down to right?

I know I’ve been writing all over the place, but I’m reaching my closer. I know many of my readers are like “Thank goodness”. If it feels dangled, it really isn’t. There isn’t much to state regarding this. I just know that it’s good things that have happened, & there are even bigger things in store. Speaking of bigger things, I’m hoping I’ll find some greater sleep. Until next time, this is BT signing out & I hope you enjoyed reading as much as I did writing.

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