So 2013 is a year that will FOREVER stick with me. I haven’t really been talking about what has gone on personally with me through this journey, but I think this portion of the “My life” discussion has to be talked about because I know for a fact that there was a lot of questions and concerns that I had to encounter. The first & most important thing is that I literally dated FOUR people in one year. I didn’t take any time whatsoever to enjoy my supposed free time to myself. Self-reflection & self-care were two things that were highly missing from my routine. I won’t really give any specific details from A-Z, but I will talk about what I encountered from each experience (without saying any names). The first person I came across that year was at a weak time. I think I just thought it was a good opportunity to meet someone & give it a try. Well, we tried it, & it didn’t work. I was generating a pattern. This patter in 2013 is one of the WORST patterns I have ever generated in dating. Literally what I was doing was dating someone, watching it decline and then giving myself NO time to just relax & be to myself. So I dated the first person in January & February. Then in March, I met the next person, & we fell apart by about early May because we just didn’t work out. I’m probably giving the wrong months, but AGAIN, I’m not putting anyone in windows precisely for the sake of knowing that it would be my luck that someone may read this. Anyways, the second split ended over an improper reach. It was one of the most awkward closings I ever experienced. Then again, there was something I have learned over the last few years, which I’ll share NOW…CHEMISTRY AND VIBES ARE KEY!!! You’ll see why in a moment. So after the reach that ended the madness, I happened to find someone that I truly thought was “the one”, & that’s not just me saying it. I truly felt it. We had an excellent vibe and chemistry. The problem is that these energies were shared with someone else that I had to silently compete with. That was a HUGE challenge for me. I think what was tough is that I kinda saw this coming. Well, August arrived & the split happened. that was number 3 for those wondering. Then, in late August going into September, I met someone who I would never expect to impact me the way they did. The simplest way to put it is that I put myself in a bad position. If you have read my blog Domestic Violence, then you can get more information as to what happened with the 4th person I was involved with back in 2013. Basically, this forced me to truly do things a little different. I have heard the term when people say that you wanna watch how you move. NOW, I realize what that means. I even had to recently thank someone for some decisions that I messed up with. Anyways, I ended up being out of work and truly trying to start over.
Before I continue, I will tell you that I am kinda coasting past this portion of my life based on me being cool with being transparent, but also not saying or sharing the wrong pieces of information that could impact me in the long haul. That was something I was forced to learn very early. It’s never anything wrong with being true to who you are. You have to know sometimes all realness doesn’t have to be shared.
So, I ended up getting put in a position where I was forced to start over. I think that things for me really are meant to happen in 3’s. This was point 2 that I was forced to start over. Luckily, I was able to bounce back & get a job and get back on my feet. I then worked for another company, & was there for a few years.
I’m reaching the current point & I’m not shortening the story, but I’m just telling you what went down. I had a few various roles in my previous position, which worked out in their respective time. The last one was able to teach me that I had reached my turning point. Touching the turning point was one thing, but I think that the results from it forced me into my 3rd reset. This reset made me do something that I would have never expect to do…learn how to truly meditate and work to remain at peace. I did find a job after being let go from the company, but due to traveling and chemistry, it wasn’t the best place to be. Shockingly, I have now reached a place I would have never expected, but the key part is that I’m here. To some, I’m back. To others, I’m just in the mix. All I’m working on is being a greater person for my personal future.
This will be my closing for this series. This wasn’t very difficult. I have a pretty good amount of information that was shared. I didn’t go too far ahead of myself with what to provide for the readers. I just wanted to kinda lead you all to the here & now along with what’s ahead. I am keeping inspirational boards. I’ve worked on my vision board & had a few personal snags in my life that just happened. Sometimes, things are in your control that you eventually maintain control of without knowing it. I just hope that the blog continues, the writing flows & my life just pieces together. As always, this is BT signing out. This concludes our story of my life. Until next time, take care.